A hundred thousand words to say , but somehow i just couldn’t tell how it feels deep inside.
It’s like it happens all out of a sudden , very fast it comes. And it seems to go pretty soon as well. I forsee , i don’t wanna guess. This is so different from the previous. I do sense the forthcoming hence i put aside all my expectations. Perhaps i had a little too many expectations which always lead to deep fall.
A gazillionth time this happens but this is different i have to emphasize. I’ve pondered for so long to seek for an outcome i could get , but there is none. THERE IS NONE.
Okay , one thing i know is i am a too emotional.
I thought things can be solved pretty simple and easy , but it’s the other way round , it’s like it has thousands of equations u have to figure out to come to an answer.
You know what ,i used to think god gives u everything with a reason. Let’s say u meet this person , she/he comes to ur life for a certain purpose. I seriously think like this so whenever i get to know a person , i would wonder what is his/her role this time ? Well , it could be a petty one but it matters.
Sometimes when you think everyone around you is just nice enough to make a lie to you , baby , no one is with a sacred heart. Everyone makes a purpose in their doings regardless how noble they are. Human nature , selfishness. Don’t you detect yet ?
Sometimes i really really do treat people without any single motive , never want a repay or something. Just no , thanks but can you please dont fake your smile and pretend ? it’s funnily disgusting. Merely sincerity i ask.
Long sigh. emo emo.
